Dazed & Confused

imagine walking along the street. chillin' just enjoying the beautiful weather. the cold, soft air gently brushes your hair. the zooming of the car brings a big chill down your spine.. aaahhhh the nice breeze. but then...

KABOOM! when you least expect it, the worst happens. you were caught off guard when out of nowhere something hits you and knocks you down. then.......you black out........ what happened? where am i?...

life.

Real World

thought i should post a quick blog update. so as you guys now, life's been rough for me at the moment. fuckin' struggling with drama, school, friends, family, everything. ugggghh but the good thing is that i'm learning more and more every single day. about myself and everyone. i'm really trying to take a step back and view everything from the outside. i don't want to be involved in the drama and just want to observe and learn. and i really am learning and i'm growing stronger each day. there's a lot of stuff i want to say to some people but it's best to not. haha. whatever. just right now floating along the waves of high school & life. i've never been this stressed and wanting to run away this bad ever. like i feel like running away from everything a lot of the time. sometimes everything is soo overwhelming i can't hold it and end up crying. freakin' embarrassing. haha. but don't worry. i'll be okay. i'm becoming stronger as a person. but thanks for all your support (ya'll know who ya aaare!). okay well i'll blog again later.

-Jenny

"what is real?"

The Place.

I want to go to a place. Where you wouldn't have any worries. No drama. No anything. A place where you wouldn't have to worry about what other people think about you. Everyone looks at you like everyone else. You're not looked at differently. A place where you can be yourself. A happy place. No hurting everyday. No secretly crying everyday. No putting on a brave face. No hurting other people. A place where you can do anything you want. Everyone is happy. No worrying about coming home every single day to your parents' constant yelling. A heaven of some sort. A place where you feel wanted. Loved. Cared for. A place of no hate. No bullshit. No hurting. No worrying of your past and all the shit you have done. A place to start on a clean slate. But...where?

Goodbye.

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I guess I had it coming. I never should have tried. Sucks but what can I do. My karma...hope you're happy. Because you are sure as hell lucky. YOU HAVE IT ALL.

-Jenny

Better said than done..

uggh i wish life was easier...

so.. i'm GROUNDED. it sucks. i came home late from hanging out with my cousins and my mom grounded me. what the eff. so she took my car keys and now i can't drive anywhere for awhile =X boooo. haha but its okay. it gives me a reason to start doing my homework/summer projects. fuuuuuuu i tried doing ap bio.. i couldn't even make it to the second page cuz it was soooooo boring and i didn't wanna read. then i was like "okay i should try ap cal" fuckin same thing. haha shit is sooo boringgggg man i can't even handle a few pages, and i'm boutta be in this shit for a year or something! UGH i hate ap haha..

i'll blog lataaah bye!

Single Update.

Yaaah, I read my other blog on the Status: Single. I forgot to mention to you guys that he broke up with me last Friday. Haha! But I'm great now.

<33333 yall.

-jennnnnerrin.

IM SO HUNGOVER.

sike. but i watched the hangover and that was hella funny. if you liked pineapple express you'll like the hangover. the comedic approach is pretty the same but they're both funny in their own way. but the hangover was hella good, go watch it. haha.

thanks to a lot of people's advice! you guys really help :) glad that you guys are my friends. you know who you guys are!

update: had fun today. :)

soooo, every day i'm learning more about myself. i feel like life is a test. your faced with challenges every single day and you have to figure out on your own how to get through them. its cool and i'm leaning towards independence. yippee. hahahah.

-jenn

I have a mind of my own.

Ugh, summer is boring! regine left me yesterday. haha. so i'm trying to keep myself occupado, guitar hero somewhat helps. what else is there to talk about? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i need to get out of the house. soon. please. haha. its getting boring in here. i feel like i'm like patrick star in his little boulder rock thingy. where's the krusty krab?!?


"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." Marilyn Monroe